So, 12 years and 4 months ago, at barely 20 years old, I gave birth to a scrawny little 6 pound baby. I have never, ever, even once wished I could change a thing about being this girls Mom. She is smart, and nice, and a good friend... And, honestly, just a good person. I am proud of her.
She makes me laugh SO MUCH! And she makes me proud, and well... Sometimes she makes me crazy too. But, I adore her.
12 years and 4 months later... She is an inch taller than me, and wears 2 shoe sizes bigger than me.
And, I think it is so cool to hang out with her, and talk to her, and I LOVE that she is intelligent, and can have interesting conversations.
I have LOVED watching her grow up, and everything she has done has been exciting and new to us.
And then there is the "Baby" of the family. And, honestly... I am just sick of watching her grow up.
Everything she does marks a last for me. The last first lost tooth, the last to ride a bike without training wheels, the last first day of Kindergarten, the last Mother's Day Spa at school.
Quite frankly, I am just not ready to be done having babies.
But we are done. And, it isn't up to us anymore. And, I know that it is the "right" choice.
But, honestly, my heart breaks daily when I realize we are one day closer to not having "Babies".
Today my "Baby" is sick. Very sick. She has a fever, and is miserable.
I have so much to do at work right now... So I grabbed some work and my laptop, some juice for my girl, and tucked her into my bed.
I worked from home, and she slept pretty much all day. And, I can't stop thinking about how fast the time is coming, that I won't get to snuggle her up in my bed, and rub her back and poor Tylenol and juice down her.
It honestly scares me to think ahead to the time when there is nobody left for me to take care of.
So, for now, I will cherish EVERY SINGLE second. I will be thankful that I can make it work to ALWAYS be there when any of the three of my children need me. I will snuggle my burning up little girl all I can for now.
I will take their pictures and do the best I can to remember every single second of Mommy-hood. It honestly is the most important thing I will ever do in my life. Hands Down!
And, I will do the best I can to raise my kids to know how to be amazing parents.
So... There you have it. What's been on my mind.
My internet is back! So, I will be catching up on posts! :)
I bet you just can't wait, RIGHT???