{ Good-Bye 2010}

So, I am not going to lie, this is the Keepin' it Real (but remembering this is public) version of {Good-Bye 2010}.

The truth is, 2010 has been one of the very hardest and bumpiest years of my "grown-up" life.

I have no doubt in my mind that I have worried, cried, prayed, wondered, feared, and doubted more this year than probably the past 15 years combined.
It's been rough.

My heart has been shattered.

I have doubted myself in just about every area of life.

It hasn't been a pretty place to be.
And though I am working hard to claw and climb my way back out, that isn't easy either.

I have learned so much about myself though, and believe that I am learning and growing, and that I am a stronger person now than I ever have been.

(Enough about that!)

This year we lost a friend to Cancer, at only 40 years old.
She was a beautiful woman who was loved beyond measure and who left her husband and 5 year old son behind. 
It is heart breaking. 
And so unfair. 
And I just don't understand it. 

And it leaves me contemplating, and wondering and sure that I need to live my best life now, while I have the chance.
And as I saw all of her friends and family spring into action when she was sick and also at her funeral, I sat there dreaming of making myself worthy of that much love and support.
And when I left there, I couldn't help but wonder, what will people say about ME, at MY funeral?

And so I head into a new year with a fresh new calendar, and a fresh new start.

And I hope, and pray that 2011 finds me with a whole new outlook on life.

{Good-Bye, 2011}.

Comments

[Kristie]

Love you Misty!! Happy New Year!! May 2011 be our best year yet!!

[Tammy]

I know people will say wonderful things about you...You are one of the sweetest, most genuine, kind, giving, beautiful girls I know! May 2011 totally show you that over & over again! Sweet blessings!